On Thursday, May 25, episode, the reality star informed mom Kris Jenner that she had been "having an anxiety attack" and "on the verge of tears" all morning as Kanye's activities made headlines.
“Even through all of the craziness — of everything that Kanye says about us — I never comment. I never post. He has made up the most insane narrative about you and [my s** tape] and we stay silent. We stay silent through all the lies and all the stuff,” Kim remarked, alluding to Kanye, implying Kris released her daughter's infamous sex video in 2007.
The couple, who had North, 9, Saint, 7, Chicago, 5, and Psalm, 4, split in 2021 and divorced in 2022. During their split, the rapper, 45, frequently resorted to Instagram to criticize Kim's parenting abilities, her affair with then-beau Pete Davidson, and Kris' momager tactics.
“I think at this point, I just assume everything I text Kanye is going to be on the internet,” Kim noted in a confessional. “I think I can handle anything. I just get really heartbroken from my mom that she has to deal with so much, you know, from so many different sides of people coming at her.”
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“All of his shenanigans, I don’t even know what the f-ck to call it, is going to be far more damaging to the kids one day than my tape will ever be.”
Kris informed her daughter throughout their conversation that she "can't control somebody else" and Kanye is "doing this to himself."
“Even just, like, how he looks so down on me for, like, my tape and brings it up all over town, all over the media — thanks for reminding people once again,” Kim responded. “All of his shenanigans — I don't even know what the f—k to call it — is going to be far more damaging to the kids one day than my tape will ever be. And I have to sit here and not say anything ever because I know one day my kids will appreciate that and I know that, like, is the best thing for that. And by the way, I'm the one where s—t could be going down and I get in the car and every day the kids want to blast dad's music. And I'm like, ‘He’s the best! Yeah.’ And I put it on and we're singing along and inside I’m, like, dying because I will be his biggest cheerleader to them forever.”
Kim highlighted that Kanye has said in interviews that he will always be his ex's "forever protector," but then attacks her in other writings.
“He is the one that is hurting me the most. He was the one that started a rumor that said I was hooking up with Drake, having an affair. Our full marriage, he accused me of that publicly,” she said. “So the person that's supposed to protect me the most publicly would accuse me of having an affair throughout our whole marriage. I really can't wrap my head around how he thinks he is a protector.”
Kanye, that has conflicted with Drake in the past, initially addressed the rumors about Kim and the Degrassi alum in 2018. Kim has stated that she has never been in a relationship with the "One Dance" singer.
Kim said in a place for confession that the rapper has requested "approval" for everything she says about him on The Kardashians. “And I'll say, ‘Well, you just talked about me in this song, this song, this interview, this interview and you didn't ask my permission.’ And I never say anything bad,” she said. “I never say anything negative. If I say I'm exhausted, I feel guilty about that. I am f—king exhausted!”
Kim became tearful during her conversation with Kris. “For once, can everyone just get their s—t together around me, so I can f—king lose it? Just once,” she cried. “I just want to lose it once. I want to have a bad day — and I can’t. I can’t even be overwhelmed and have a bad day because no one else has this s—t together. … It just felt bad, you know, and I don't know why I feel bad. … I don't know what to do. I don't want to be a part of this narrative. And it's like, ‘When is this ever gonna end?’ Like, it never will. … I’m stuck with this for the rest of my life.”